I Will Always Be In Love
I knew he was gonna fall for some chick because he always does, and I can't or nor want to stop it because he's there and I'm here, and I will always be in love. As I fight back tears I realize there's nothing to do but move ahead and know he will always be there for me and hope I'll find a love of my own, but we both know no one comes close, because I will always be in love. And after the tears I don't cry we both know no one can ever compare and we will always catch each other when we fall because we will always be in love.
When He Falls
I want him to be mine because when I look into his eyes I know I see something that other girls don't, but he doesn't feel the same and is blind to what I see. This feeling I have been holding back for so many years is eating me up inside, though I pretend I'm fine and put on a pretty face. I love him too much to just walk away, and I could I wouldn't, it wouldn't be right. So when he falls again all I can do is be there to catch him.
Hateful Words
I hear them saying those hateful words and it makes me sick, I just want to close my eyes and drift off to a happier place. I sit in my room with the music blaring to try to tune out the screaming and the stupid fights, but it doesn't help because who can tune something so hateful. I lie awake at night with those words and stupid fights running through my head and as I cry I pray to God to help me get through the night and that it will get better. And then the day starts over.
Something They Don’t Know
When he looks at me he makes me feel like the only girl on earth and he smiles because he sees my eyes light up. I smile back because we know something they don't, we wonder what could have been. But we have already seen that movie so we don't think twice, and play along with what people think. Though the script is mostly fiction, there is one truth to the story, he will always make me feel like the only girl on earth and he will smile because my eyes will always light up.
All I Can Do Is Wait
I go outside to try to escape, it doesn't help because there's love and beauty everywhere I look. Talk to guys a million miles away, but at the end of the day I still feel alone. I sit in my room telling my self he's out there, yet every time I do I have more trouble believing it. Where could he be? what could possibly taking him so long to find me? All I can do is wait for that moment where we look at each and we know that he's found me.
If I Fall
If I let myself fall for him it will only bring me heartbreak, yet so much happiness. The more I talk the deeper I fall, though I try to hide it because I know he feels it too and we know it will never work. We have so much in common yet so little, I won't let myself fall for someone I barely know. So I put yet another wall up and hope this one isn't breakable.
Want To Open His Eyes
He broke down my wall though I tried to fight it, we know it's insane, but we don't care because with every word we fall deeper. He sees what they don't and I the same, but he's blind to it. I wish I could make him see, but he's so scared and doesn't know what he's worth. All I can do is to try to open his eyes and hope I succeed.
As Long As It Takes
He broke through my wall that I thought was unbreakable. I let my guard down to let love in it was nice, but went as quick as it came. He says he's changed his mind and wants to friends, I guess I'm part to blame. I love him so I'll wait as long as it takes to change his mind again.
There’s Nothing I Wouldn’t Do
If he asked me to climb the highest mountain I would
If he asked me to swim the longest and deepest ocean I would
If he asked me to lie for him I would
If he asked me to put my life on the line for him I would
Because there's nothing I wouldn't do for him
Luckiest Girl Alive
He stops time puts everything on hold, doesn't mater where or what time of the day it is. Would climb the highest mountain and swim the longest and deepest ocean if she asked him to, doesn't matter he doesn't care. It's her and her only, everybody else doesn't seem to matter. He would do anything for her, even to go as far as bringing the moon, stars, and planets down for her. And I'm so lucky that girl is me, the luckiest girl alive.
Love
Love is a weird twisted thing, it goes as quickly as it comes with no rhyme or reason just does. I got a taste of it, again it came into my life as quickly as it sailed out and I'm left with just another heart break and tears.
The Wall
I let down my wall for you knowing I was risking heart break, you came in looked around you liked what you saw so you told me you would stay awhile. Things got in our way and maybe I asked too much, no escape. Now you say you need to leave for awhile though I'm clinging and holding on for dear life and all I'm left with is tears and what I know was the love of my life.
Almost
I almost was happy
I almost had someone to belong to
I almost thought I found the love of my life
I almost felt like he was going to protect me forever
He almost got me to believe he would never leave me and always be there
But never came too soon and always faded away
And almost doesn't count
Numb
The hurt turned to numbness, don't feel a thing because there's nothing else to feel. I won't shed a tear or loose a night a of sleep. Scared to feel again, but want to so much. Oh God please let me feel again.
When
When will I find love
When will this emptiness go away
When will I hear the three words I want and desperately need to hear
When will I belong to him and he will belong to me
When and eventually is eating away at me
But all I can do is wait
To hear those three words
To belong to him and he will belong to me
This emptiness to disappear
And to find love
Haunting Images
These haunting images that I've tried to block out for so many years every sound, every memory comes back. And though I desperately try to escape it I can't, it's too strong to fight it. These bitter sweet images that my brain plays over and over leaves me crying nights away. then the tears turn to anger and I lay awake saying I won't let it control my life. I refuse to be a prisoner of my own thoughts so once again I get angry enough to fight like hell.
Screaming On An Empty Stage
Screaming at the top of my lungs for somebody to hear me. You think you have me all figured out, but you have not the slightest clue. You wrote a script that you think how it should play out, and you're sticking to it like glue. I'm getting tired of fighting so you can have your award, I'm done.
Hidden Feelings
There's so much I want to say but don't because he made it quite clear we can't be anything but. That road isn't an option, may never be so I keep these words and feelings to myself. Because I know it's not right and it's too hard to think about. So I make this wall even stronger so it will never break and fall like the first.
Blocked Out Butterflies
Block out the butterflies, block out the sweet words. Block out any feelings that might lead to another heartbreak, because you can't bare to risk endless nights of crying yourself to sleep and have yet another scar. You want to feel so much and give anything to do so, but you're just scared out of your mind to let yourself trust again. So all you can do is wait for that guy who will do anything to prove to you that he won't break your heart and patiently wait for your wall to come down.
Waking Up
He's starting to wake my heart up, those feeling I thought were gone for good are slowly coming back. I can feel my guard slowly fading and replaced by butterflies, but not to get to far ahead because I know it could all end. If I let him in I know I'm risking a fall, but yet I want to. I can only hope he's there to catch me.
He Was There
The butterflies came and went, he said I'm not going anywhere beautiful, I should have known it was too good to be true. When my fairytale ended somebody who loves me with all his heart was there and made sure I knew it. His love is all I need to feel like I'm on top of the world and wouldn't change it because I too love him with all my heart.
For James and Elaine Lacerenza
What To Do
What do you do when you love him, but he loves her and she can't see what I see. What do you do when you'd give anything to have him, but at the same time give anything just for him to be happy and be in love even if it's not with you. What do you do when it breaks your heart that his breaks. Only one thing tell him I'm here and catch him when he falls again, but if he ever wants to be with me and not her, he's gonna have to make that move because I'm through making the moves.
Thankful
When I see him in pain I wish I could take it all because I'd rather him be happy and I in pain because that in itself would bring me all the happiness in the world. Why he loves me, I'll never know because behind this act that he probably sees right through I'm just a scared little girl and never did nor never will think I deserve his love, he however seems to think otherwise. And for that I'm so lucky and will always be there for him just like he made the same promise to me because sometimes I love him more than life itself and I think and I hope he feels the same.
Friends
He loves me but in the way I would like, still I don't mind because I'd rather have him as a friend than not at all. I'm still not about to leave his side because he'll do the same for me and well, that's what friends do. And the day that special girl comes along I'll be so happy and jump for joy because he deserves that kind of love and that girl better know just how lucky she is. He says never, I still don't believe that because you never say never, but my fairytale didn't workout and just like a butterfly I have to let him go and just maybe one day he'll come back to me.
Angel In Disguise
He is there when no one else isn't
He understands what nobody else possibly could
When I think I can't make it another day he's the voice that says yes you can
He is the reason why I pull myself out of bed every morning
He's the reason why I feel safe and continue to believe
He makes me laugh when nobody else can
So my friend, you're an angel in disguise
When You Know You Love Someone
When you love someone you'd do anything just to be with them
You pray for them more than you do for yourself
You can't stand to be away from them more than a minute, and even if you are, you're thinking about them
They're the first thing on your mind when you wake up, and the last thing you think about before you go to sleep
You'd give the world for their happiness, even if it's not with you
But when you really know you love someone, you let them go
Through The Storm
It hurts me more than he'll ever know when I hear him cry and see his pain
He cares so much about me, yet doesn't see what see what he's worth, more than he'll ever know
He thinks he's alone in this rain storm, but he's mistaken because I'll stand in the rain with him and hold an umbrella over him
And promise not to leave his side til we both see the rainbow come out
Wish You Were Here
The day you said your final goodbyes, a part of my heart died
You told me "don't you dare cry", though I tried to listen to your words the tears flowed
What I'd give to hear your voice and laugh again
And want you to hold me in your arms and tell me it's ok like you did so many times
Though I know you never left
I wait for the day we meet and once again hold me in your arms
For Helen and Alfred Delahoussaye
Angel Baby
Born into a family that loved you, so sweet and perfect like a little angel with that smile that melted hearts
Then they found out that their angel was sick, and that beautiful smiile started to fade
But not without a fight, but God told you another baby was coming and will need your help
And little did they know his words would soon ring true
The doctors tried to keep you here, and Lord knows everybody wanted you to stay because didn't want to let their angel go
But you were already holding God's hand and waiting for the baby to arrive that needs your help
Little did they know that baby was me
So if God ever blesses me with a sweet angel like you, I'll give her your name
And if she ever asks who she was named after, I'll look at her and say, angel baby
For Aubrey Delahoussaye
I love you
Jessica
The next born into a tremendous family
Why I Try
Going through the motions, just trying to survive
I feel so hopeless, what's the point of trying
No mater how I try I can't break through
Then I see you, then I remember why I try
And I smile, and I get the strength
And make through it another day, just for you
For James Lacerenza
The Day You Broke My Heart
Woke up thinking what a lucky girl I was and how much I loved you
Couldn't wait to talk to my prince who rescued me and made my eyes light up like fire flies
And who I thought I could trust his word, and loved me too
I said "hey baby, how are you?" you said "hey baby, I think I wanna break up"
And with those eight words you did something you said you'd never do, broke my heart
And left me with scars and tears
But that's ok, I'll lick my wounds, and eventually heal the scars that you gave me
Because I have somebody who loves me more than you ever did
And even more people that won't let me much so as cut my knee
So go on with your life never thinking about how much you hurt me, because I'll be alright with out you
Friend Taken Advange Of
Sometimes I feel like a thing to fall on because we both know I'll always be there
I know he doesn't mean it and loves me, but still hurts and makes my heart break
Because I know I'm alll he's got
So when he hurts me I have to tell myself it's not me, and that he needs me more than ever
And pray for the strength to help him and not get mad
Because I love him
The Angel That Saved My Life
I was lonely and heartbroken
Felt trapped by my own heart and mind
Wanted to die
And just when I was sure nobody cared and was ready to give up
God sent me an angel who his intention to love me and never leave me
And though I tried to push him away because I was scared
He didn't back down and his love never faded
And I now realize that his love nor him will ever leave
And even when I die my angel will still be there
For James Lacerenza
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